With no religious or spiritual background upon coming into the program of AA, I didn’t think much of or about it. My prayers were limited to “God get me out of this and I will never do it again.” He would get me out of it and I would chump him or he wouldn’t and I would believe that he chumped me. My sponsors insisted that I give this new to me idea of Spirituality a chance. I didn’t know how it works, so they told me to fake it until I made it.
I was very unsure how it works but I also was hurting physically and emotionally and wanted it all to stop. I saw the people at meetings smoking and joking about what I considered horrible things. If they had my problems they would either drink or be miserable too.
They seemed to be actually happy, joyous, and genuinely free. I wanted that and I paid close attention to the second paragraph of How it Works where it says that if I wanted what they had then I should be willing to go to any lengths to get it. I believed that anything was better than my life at that time. So I was willing to go to any lengths to get what they were showing me.
It didn’t take long and I soon was not faking it as much and feeling much better. The strong desire for a drink left rather quickly. I was feeling much better about myself which led to thinking better of others. This was a complete turnaround for me and my thinking. I loved the feelings that I was getting and, being addictive, I wanted more. Much, much more!
Just as soon as I began working my program to the best of my ability 24/7/365, I got more. Much, much more! To this day, when working my program 24/7/365 to the best of my ability, my life continues to get better every day! If it works for this formerly very large, very angry, very violent, well armed man, it can and will work for you. The only requirement is that you work your program 24/7/365 to the best of your ability. That is a promise!
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