I have heard since I was very young that when something happened, especially if it was very tragic, “It was the will of God” and “It was just meant to happen.” This was another reason why I was confused about God. This didn’t sound very loving to me. If I heard it from my parents or ministers or someone who I believed in, it must be true, right? Wrong! God made us in His image, happy, joyous, and free, right from birth. A newborn does not know right, wrong, or any of the shades in between. He is born crying because some midwife smacked him on the butt. Right after that, he learned how to smile quickly.
It was when others yelled, struck each other or him, fought, lied, stole, cheated that he learned there were bad influences around him. Even if the baby was loved very much by the people surrounding the baby and later infant then youngster then adult that people learned that there were things to fear, mistrust, and a host of other hostile feelings. People like this exist but I don’t believe that any of these negative actions are ‘The will of God” or the right thing.
God sees us as Perfect, just like all of his creations. So, where does this all come from? I believe that it comes from the fact that He also gave us all free will. Some choose to use this gift of free will for good and some choose to use this gift for their own personal means and they choose to be miserable. When I was in the madness, my free will was not always for the betterment of others. Did I do good things? Sure. Did I do bad things? Sure. Throughout mankind and the world there are some who had and still are perpetrating really wicked things.
The difference between what was done centuries ago and now is that civilization has evolved so much. This means that the tools of destruction, mass or individual, have evolved into horrific items. Also, communications. Now, with electronic media, news travels as fast as electronics will take it. But, with the addition of these newer tools, the old ones are still around and effective.
What does this all have to do with the topic? The God that I know has created me and you as spiritual beings living in a spiritual universe that is governed by spiritual law. As a Divine being, He made me in His image which is as an individualized expression of God and one with all that exists. There is no room for misery here! This means that the Eternal Life cited in the Bible means that I am just this expression of God and am now in human form. I transitioned from spiritual to human form when born to my birth mother and will transition from human form back to the spiritual when my body is done hosting my spirit. This will not happen before or after it is meant to occur.
When I was a police officer, I was shot point blank in the chest by the object of a drug raid using a shotgun. It picked me up bodily and threw me off of a porch onto the ground. This was the first time I had worn a protective vest after being involved in probably over 100 drug raids. I remember the incident and I heard and saw the entire event take place. The thing was that I didn’t see it with my eyes. I observed it all as if from above. It was dark in the yard but I could see the entire area as if looking through a night scope with everything having a green hue. I could hear what others were saying and thinking and the gunshots. I had no sense of time, taste, smell, touch. I remember thinking “He shot me, he shot me” and seeing myself land on the ground and thought again “He shot me.”
I did not see my life pass in front of me like I had heard happens, or see anything but what was going on in that backyard. I was only in this state for probably a matter of a few seconds and then seemed to wake up with bedlam going on. I got up and finished my job.
I was afraid to tell anyone about this for a long time because I thought people would think that I was hallucinating again. Then I started reading about life after death experiences of others and starting realizing what had happened. It was not my time “to go” so I can tell others about it now. It took away my fear of death. I am not looking forward to leaving this existence but the fear is gone completely. I saw that my spirit and my human body are not one. My spirit is living in my body and will live after my body is no longer.
This is why I believe that, when I transition, it will be the right thing. Therefore, when I transition, I don’t see it as a bad thing at all. I am truly Happy, Joyous, and Free. Happy that I have not left this human experience, yet. Joyous that I can share this experience with others so that, hopefully, then they can find some peace when thinking of their own or another’s transition. And Free because I have accomplished all of this without the use of a mind altering substance such as alcohol.
How do I know if something is the right thing? If it feels good, it IS good. If I feel apprehensive at all, I stop and reconsider. The best way that I know of to be able to deal with this sort of life’s questions is to start out by saying the shortened version of The 3rd Step by saying merely “God, help me,” AND HE DOES! Then, all that I have to do is move on! It is remarkable what simply saying “God, help me” can and will do! IF I LET IT!!!