And Not Wringing Your Hands
When I first came into AA and heard about God’s will and my will, I didn’t have a clue as to what it really meant. I had been taught and thought that I knew all about willpower being the way to get anything done.
I probably had heard about God’s will for me but it all had gone right over my head. I had a conscience where I thought that I knew right from wrong but never thought about it either.
Then I began hearing about Spirituality, not religion and saw that, whatever it was, it seemed to be working very well with you folks. This is where I first heard that I should pay attention to God’s will and not my will.
AsI looked deeper into what Spirituality really was, I liked what I was seeing and hearing. I saw it in your changing attitudes for the better and heard it in your explanations of how you were working your program.
I have turned my life into one of constantly striving to learn more about my Spirituality. I have learned that I have a different conscience than I had when in the madness.
I really know and FEEL what is right and what is wrong with me now. What is right for me is doing God’s will for me. What I do wrong for me is when I do not do God’s will.
What slowed me down was my wondering what God’s will was for me.
I didn’t want to turn into a funless slug. It took a while but I discovered that I should not go out looking for God’s will, just do the next right thing and I will FEEL instantly if it is right or wrong.
When I first get a thought, if I feel comfortable with it, it is God’s will. If I feel apprehensive at all, I should pause and reconsider. Go back to our discussions on the power of the mind!
Whatever we wish to call our Higher Power, It created us. So how do you know if this Power is speaking to you? The universe is made up of vibrations, we know this because of Physics.
So, if you feel good about a thought, it is God communicating with you that it is all right. If you feel apprehensive, it is God communicating with you that maybe you should rethink the situation.
Have you ever noticed getting vibrations from people — good-feeling ones when the thoughts are happy thoughts and apprehensive ones when the thoughts are questionable?
These vibes can come as a shiver, shudder, or a warm or chilly feeling coming over you. They may be strong or mild but, whichever, they are real. Pay attention to them and try to figure out just what they mean.
This is an interesting way to discover just what our Higher Power is telling you. In Step 11, it tells us “Sought through prayer and meditation…” and I never knew what meditation was.
Mymeditation now is observing what is going on around me and paying real attention to this in the now. I “listen” to what God is telling me by the feelings that I have when in the now.
Now, I believe that my thoughts and wishes are in keeping with the knowledge of His will for me so I pray that Our will be done. For it to be Our will, merely means that my wishes and will are in sync with His will.
This is my meditation. If it feels right, it probably is right. If it feels wrong, it probably is wrong. How much simpler can it get? Thank you, God!
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