that we had when back in the madness!
Step 2 states: Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity. “Yeah, but I don’t wish death to people who disagree with me anymore. Serious injury maybe but not death.”
So what’s the problem? The problem is that thoughts are THE most powerful ingredient of our entire makeup. When I get a negative thought about anyone or anything, it has a cost. This is a cost that I am no longer willing to pay.
This is coming from someone who used to get sight pictures of people who I disagreed with. A sight picture is what one sees when looking through the sights of a firearm. My world was one that was filled with violence and anger.
This was what I knew. When I finally started believing Step 2 and looked at my Higher Power as something completely different than the punishing, judgmental tyrant I had thought that God was, I turned to Step 3 and said “Take me, God. I surrender!”
Since I had had so many years thinking negatively of God, this was not easy. I was defeated and down to a depth in life that saw only two choices. Dying or surrendering to the Power that I was seeing had transformed so many others right in front of my eyes.
I wanted what they had and was willing to go to any lengths to get it! WOW! I got the start of instant relief. The difference between now and before the Program AA entered my life was BELIEF!
Isaw it in others and believed that if it could work for them, why not me too? I grabbed onto the life preserver tossed by AA and have not let go ever since. I am NOT the same person that I was before starting to work the Program of AA.
No more than a frog is a tadpole anymore or a butterfly is a caterpillar. I do not entertain negative thoughts simply because I do not wish to return to the madness ever again.
WHAT TO DO NOW How do you change your thinking? Simply say the shortened version of the 3rd Step, “God, help me.” Then get out of His way and let Him.
If you entertain negatives, you WILL drink and return to the madness. Since all are also extensions of the Higher Power, I thank you each and every day for your guidance, love, and understanding simply by saying “Thank you, God!”
This is what keeps the insane thoughts away from my mental doorstep.
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