with your head or with your heart?
Were you wide open with your feelings or did you keep them to yourself”
I was always very guarded with my true feelings and bottled up a lot of frustrations, anger, and fear, that came out in other self-destructive ways.
When I took the advice of my early AA sponsors and started faking it until I made it, I discovered that thoughts and intellectual knowledge could be very fleeting while feelings would be long-lasting.
Feelings are described as “The way that someone experiences an emotion.”
I once had a lifetime of bad feelings and was beginning to like and look forward to the good feelings that were appearing. Studying Spirituality opened the door to these good feelings.
“I didn’t wish to kick anyone today,” “I didn’t crave a drink today,” “I am not a bad person today,” “I helped someone today,” and “I learned something new today”
These thoughts made me feel good and, being addictive, I wanted more, much more. My earlier thoughts of a vengeful, ogre-like God scared me badly. My thoughts of a loving, caring, understanding God comforted me.
When I learned to Utilize and not Analyze, my life very quickly became one that I embraced. I don’t study the AA program with my head. When I do, I forget quickly.
Anymore, I do not have many of the 12 Steps of AA memorized in my head. I have the 12 Steps of AA embedded in my heart and live the program and all of its principles to the best of my ability.
This brings up another thought. Whenever making a statement such as this I would usually modify it with a disclaimer such as “Of course, I am not perfect” or “Being human, I can stray.”
This only brings up the negative so today I leave the disclaimers out. My new knowledge of Spirituality has given me the peace that I always strove for but never could find. Keeping negativity out keeps me peaceful.
Remember, we are Spiritual Beings, living in a Spiritual Universe, that is governed by Spiritual Law and we are one with all that exists. Knowing that I am one with all reminds me that I am never alone.
The first two words of The Lord’s Prayer, “Our Father,” remind us that we are all one. With this, I am emotionally wealthy, meaning Happy, Joyous, and Free. You can be too if you want it enough to be willing to do the work.
Happiness, joy, and freedom are yours for the asking! What and who do you ask? Simply use the shortened version of the 3rd Step by saying “God, help me.” Then, get out of His way and let Him. “That’s all, folks!”
Thank you, God!
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